Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Wonder-dummied

Today is my second wedding anniversary.

My life has taken so many unexpected turns since I met Jason. Many were difficult, all of them were right, and they each have strengthened us as a couple and individuals. I didn't know how full and peaceful my life could be until I found someone I love more than myself. As a new mother I feel my capacity for love is never-ending, not only for Flynn but for Jason as well.

Because childbirth is still on my mind, I will say that a long labor and delivery bonded us together like nothing we have ever experienced. I was terrified. Jason got me through it. Not the nurses, not the doctor. My epidural had long since worn off and the only thing that gave me the strength to keep going was him. Our childbirth coach discouraged mothers from focusing on the father's face during labor. I looked at Jason's eyes the whole time and I have never wanted to punch anyone less. He was my lifeline. I needed him. Not for reassurance, but because he and I were the only important people in the world in those moments.

After the nurses had left that night, the only thing I wanted was to hold Jason's hand. Just knowing he was near gave me such comfort.

This is what love really is; trust and hope in the dark moments. I married someone who has given me every reason to look forward to our future, whatever it brings. Each passing day I am filled with wonder at how happy I am to be married to my husband.

I love you, Jase.

2 comments:

Original Kos said...

Happy Thanksgiving, you two. Love you both, especially together. And Baby Flynny, too. I guess. :)

Pepper said...

that is very sweet Jossi. Love you guys!!!